一路走来，好多好多的回忆。。有好的，有坏的。。

有时候，我会在想，你会不会还记得？还是，只有我傻傻的一直都没有办法忘记？

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I hope I was the first thing on your mind when you woke up today... Am I?

- "Tweety" - I HaTe -

Lol...

To think something such as Miss "Tweety"-look alike is enough to make me write up a blog post soo early in the morning... :D

Anyway, Tweety is coming to the nearest space around me soon - just very soon.. (shouldn't make it too obvious.. Okay?)

And.. Uhh... I hate heart it... Yeah, like "absolutely"... Anyway, please be gone soon welcome... *Smiles*

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Oh.. Here's a picture of Miss "Tweety" for revenge welcoming sake..

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Okay, okay.. I noe.. It was a "lil, weeny bit" too much.. But, whatever.. I'm satisfied... Now back to work... Hahahahahahaha.... It's such a evil great way to start work early morning!

P/S :

Sorry to all "Tweety" birds fan.. But I assure you all, the "Tweety" bird I'm referring to - memang cari masalah... *no better words to describe*... :p

没关系... :)

If I saw something hurtful today... 没关系...

It teaches me to be stronger...

If there is no other way but to give love away today... 没关系...

I will learn the meaning of "giving is better than receiving" and to forgive and forget...

If that something hurtful refuse to budge away from inside my mind today... 没关系...

It will teach me to open up my mind more in time to come...

If I cannot understand why things should turn out this way... 没关系...

It teaches me the true meaning of "everything happens for a reason" and I will see why in time to come...

Hmmm... I really am going all melancholy... But it's going to be all right from now on.. :)

Since I decided to start afresh,I shall remember what I wrote in this post today.. :)

Wish me luck guys!! Last but not least, PLEASE allow me to vent out something in frustration :

WTH!! If you want him, take lar!!!! I dun wan pun!! Just dun show me that "black face" when I smiled to you!!!! Cehhh... Silly woman!!!! And, please lar!!! I'm not that desperate, okay??!! Get it!!! AND.. he's not all that great at all!!!

**Phewww** That felt so nice... :p

重新开始 . . .

突然觉得该是时候重新开始了... :)

伤心,也伤心够久了...

我也应该开始往对的方向去冲了!!! 冲向我的梦想! :)

大家一起加油吧!! :)

_LoVe_?

Lol...

Chanced upon this quote at my friend's facebook just now and just thought that it's very true.. Like I'm living this now..

• It's when you shed tears for him but still you care for him.

• It's when he ignored you but you still long for him.

• It's when he starts loving another, and yet you manage a smile and find the courage to say "I'm happy for you"

And this is what I felt like adding:

• It's when even if it hurt you, you can forget the pain knowing that you made him happy

• It's when you hold on to that little piece of hope, hoping that one day, he would see you; but even if he doesn't, you'll be contented just having that little bit of hope and yes - that little bit of hope is enough for you to go on miles and miles and never feel tired.... :)

Anyway, the past few weeks had been hectic and it still is going to be for quite sometime.. But, such life is great... Tired and hectic - but accomplished! :)

And yes, I'm slowly moving towards realizing all my aims.. And I'm going to realize them all one by one.. Taking baby steps and going forward towards them...

It IS going to be very exciting...

*Jiayou Carol!!!!* :)

- run away -

Sometimes... I just feel like running away from everything... Living my life without caring about anything or for anyone...

lol.. If life can be like that, would it be better?

Guess that wishing to start all over new and build a different kind of relationship with someone who used to be very close to you can be really hard... But, I tried.. Why can't it be possible?

Sorry, but this is one frustrated, meaningless post.. :(

就这样....

就这样....

每一个人,回到自己原来的位置...不好吗？

Let go - Move on... ^^

Recently,

I'm not so very fine... LOL...

Well, its not like I ever write blog posts when I'm feeling VERY FINE rite?.. Hehe...

Well, a lot a lot of things happened in between the time period where I din post up any posts.. 9 months is a looong time for many things to occur, enuf for my final exams to happen and end, enuf for me to end uni life, enuf for me to say farewell to uni friends, enuf for me to start internship, enuf for me to start a foolish relationship and end it quickly... Lastly, enuf for me to make a lot of mistakes, start a lot of new adventures and gain a lot of life experiences from it.. I n short, from the past 9 months.... I learnt new things, and in the process broke many hearts including my own... I got hurt.. but well, we learn from things like this, rite? It'll only make us wiser, and stronger... But, am I getting wiser and stronger? Hmmm... time will heal me.. and time will teach me to be... I am certain of that... In time also, people's true colors will show... So, I leave it to time to decide that for me...

Anyway, starting work made me realize its REALLY totally a completely different lide from studying (i meant uni life).. I dunno bout other working people's life.. but mine had been as if it's programmed... I wake up - I get ready for work - I go to work - I work (of course) - I get bek from work - I bath - I eat - I slip... Same routine for 5 days in a week... Weekends? I rather spend it at home... Cos ever since I started working, no place had been as comforting as home... Geez...


Ohh... and yes, I haven touched on the title of this post... Yes, I'm letting go of the what I had hold on to for sometime and I am happy to say that I started moving on.. Close friends would know what I am letting go of I guess... Wish me luck.. I am getting wiser and stronger I guess... Haha.. Well people.. Just a piece of advice - Always, ALWAYS listen to what your heart is telling you when it comes to relationship matters.. If you know, this is never gonna work out - well, BE WILLING TO FACE REALITY - face it bravely and love yourself - Dun deny reality and hurt urself in the end... LOL... *macamlah its something easy* Anyway, just my advice... From someone who's gone thru it all... *Cehhh*

Uhh.. Anyway, at this very moment... I am feeling damn hungry.. I haven had my dinner yet and yes, the time now is 139am... Ooohhh... I'm gonna end here and go find some food before I pass out... Hahahaha..

Till then.. May we all be wiser and stronger to face whatever that comes our way in the time to come... Let's all work hard together!! *JIayou* *Good Luck* Cheers~

= McDonald's COCA COLA Contour Glass =

Wee~~

I just came back from McD and I just got myself a pink COCA COLA contour glass~

Here's my new darling:

Darling's still in the box

Darling without box

Hoho.. Can't wait to rasmikan my new darling now.. Hahaha...

You can get this limited edition COCA COLA contour glass with purchase of any McDonald's large set plus a mouth-watering sundae... HoHo... You get to eat the sundae which comes in two flavors (strawberry and chocolate) and get this nice darling for FREE~~ Mine is named as "Pink the Sparks".. They come in lots of other colors: Green, Blue, Lime, Purple and Charcoal.. There's even a clear one... XD

So, what are you guys waiting for?? Hurry up and collect all 7 today~~ (Promo for the glass, wahahahaha...)

Just happy cause I get to eat McD just now.. Together with the ayam goreng and cold COKE~~ And also the French Fries.. Huu~~

I think that's about it for now.. Just wanna show off my new darling..

p/s: doudou, jangan jeles~~ XD

-Of Cheese Cake Craves-

Gosh...

I actually turned of my laptop in frustruation like 10 minutes ago.. And here I am re-opening it and blogging so late past midnite... Haizz.. today whole day waste in front of laptop, hoping to finish another of my assignments, but yet i gave up just now.. Damn~ I reli reli hate looking for journals and completing literature reviews.. It is just so F***ing hard to find the correct one, the one we truly need for doing the literature review.. Haizzz..

Gosh, I'm so stressed out right now that I suddenly wan to write this post about my crave for the SECRET RECIPE cheese cake now.. Haizz... I am already fantasizing about the marble cheese cake, the choc cheese cake and also the cappucino one.. And while enjoying these, how nice it is if there's also a cup of hot chocolate... Gosh, feels like heaven if these can reli happen now.. T_T

Haizzz... I'm not lazee.. I reli do wan to finish my assignments quickly, but y isit just so damn hard to find the materials.. Y????? Gosh!!!!

I hate the feeling of waking up to assignments EVERYDAY!! Its reli tiring! I dun even get to sleep well!!! To ask me to just simply do my assignments even when I noe i dun have enough material is simply out of the question! Its against my principle!! Haizz.. Damn!

From the moment I wake up today, I faced my laptop without even having breakfast first... There were only oats for lunch, even that is taken while still facing the laptop! Then the hours just past like that!! Gosh!!!! The journals seems forever to find! Nothing on the topic that I was supposed to review about!!!!!!! Arrrgghh!!! I realized thatI kept scratching my head from just now.. I think all my already-thin-enough hair is gonna fall off if this continue.. Haizzz.. FRUST-FRUST-FRUST!!

I cnt get to sleep.. How am I supposed to sleep when whenever I close my eyes, I see assignments piled up???

HAizzz....

**I reli wish to have a slice of the SECRET RECIPE cheese cake now**

**Sobs**

-Hopeless Me-

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Its funny.. But I suddenly wanted to write a post which I dun even noe what to name as...

I just suddenly tot that I reli missed the past... How nice it is if I can just go bek to being the simple me... I noe changes are good for me, but its like I dunno me anymore... Life seems so superficial, I seemed so FAKE... Is it really that way, or I'm just thking to much?..

Gosh, must be the result of my insomnia...

Anyway, I had a much better sleep yest thanks to Talka-Dou-Dou and oso My crazeee roomate... We actually sang nursery rhymes in the wee hours, past midnite.. Yup, u heard that right, NURSERY RHYMES!!! Together with the dance.. So miss the stupid old me in kindergarden... XD

i actually relieved those days yesterday, a pity we din took any pics.. So So so so so DAMN Fun~~ U guys should try it too when u're stressed out..

Haha, we did the 10 lil indians, the hokey pokey, the finger song ( in which we actually pointed the middle finger JUST LIKE THAT.. ) was so00 FUN!!.. Oh, and u guys should also try the "If u're happy" song... haha... (remember the Gatsby ad?) XD.. anyway, it was just FUN.. dunno how to describe it, but I reli will miss yesterday.. =)

Gosh, dun think I will ever have a another chance like that ever again..

I'm dizzying over Internships now.. Gosh, how am I ever gonna step into the outside world, in the name of INTERNSHIP, if I dun even noe what I can really offer?

**Crossing my fingers so that my future bosses wouldn't jump upon this post**

Anyway, hope I do get a great company to gain enough exp... **Winks**

Arghhh, so Damn hungry now... Its so ironic u noe, that when our Muslims counterpart were fasting, we're the ones busy looking all over for foods at the Bazaar Ramadhan.. And now when they're all back home, Raya-ing, we're the ones "FASTING".. (cos all the cafe's in sch isn't opened, and town is far away).. Gosh... T_T

Haizz... k la... I think that's all I want to say for today.. In the mean time, I reli hope someone will hand-deliver food to my door... XD

**Hungry** T_T

~Origins of my Insomnia~

Geez..

What is LOVE? If he takes care of you and you are able to do the same for him; or you do things for him/ her without asking anything in return, then this is LOVE? Its complicated...

I read somewhere just now in a website that heartbroken is "an excruciating pain, that hurts like H***, but then you can't find any wounds on you, just PAIN... There isn't even any known cure for it..

I'm supposed to be finishing my 7 assignments, and yet I haven even fully completed one by today.. I have only 7 days left of my holidays, will I survive? T_T

Geez, I reli am stressed out now... All these things.. No one to turn to, No shoulder to cry on.. Nothing..

I dun even noe where to start talking about how I ended up so miserably today, it just happen.. POOF!! Just like that... Haizzz...

Headache... Heartache.... Depressed.. ====> Insomnia as the result..

Guess I just have to pull myself together and go thru all this..

It will be over soon, I know... Just have to brace myself...

Aja Aja!!! Y(^o^)Y

Exhausted Inside Out

Hmmm

I've tot about a lot these few days when I was sick...

I think its due to my serious case of insomnia.... :(

When you are alone, you tend to think back about a lot of things... It's true I guess...

F-O-R-G-I-V-E-----A-N-D-----F-O-R-G-E-T

This phrase sounds familliar rite?

How many times have you tried to tell yourself this phrase and tried to convince yourself into forgiving someone for whatever mistakes that they have done?

Did it work?

Hmm.... Well, for me... Sometimes it works but sometimes it don't..

I thk it depends on the severity of the mistake level.. Rite?

Well... I've tried my best to try forgive someone... But I cnt deny that sometimes.. Memories are just so hard to fade... And they remind me of the mistakes he/she did.. And then, its just so hard... And then, it slowly kills me on the inside.... :(

I think wats best for me now, or for whoever that had made up their mind to F&F is to reli promise yourself that you will forget...

Mayb that's the best way for both parties... :)

But then, if the same person commits this mistakes again and again.. what then?

Another F&F?

Haha... Silly question... But worth pondering upon rite? :)

Oh... Come on.. Better than getting sad or depressed even one minute for someone who isn't worth it, why not use that one minute to take it out of you?

I mean like letting out your bottled up, depressed feelings...

Do something that makes you hapy.. Or talk to someone...

Well, I used to let out my anger by screaming loudly into a pillow so that my muffled scream wudn't frighten my neighbours.. Haha....

But now.. I learn to talk to someone... It's reli nice to find a listener.. Someone you can talk to and someone you can trust... :)

But then, you can also talk to something.. Well, like me, I am pouring out all my thkings here into my blog...

Even though it may mean that someone may be reading my blog and tell me on how mushy and weird my blog postings sounds.. But at the end of the day, my chest wun feel so tight-up with all the bottled feelings I've kept... :)

Well.. May my posting this time b able to help someone.. or whoever is reading it... :)

Good Nite everyone... :)

~Home <---> Got Sick~

Haizzz...

I tot I can finally enjoy it at home... U noe la.. The usual, watch Tv, Sliipppp, and Eat.. Eat.. Eat..

But who wud have guessed that I had fallen ill upon the third day of reaching home... haizzz...

I'm so scared and SAD now that I'm hiding in a corner.. Drawing circles.... Haizzzz... What if it's H1N1??? Wahaha....

Cham cham cham.....

P/S: Those who r reading this blog.. pray for ur CUTE friend... k?

I'm missing someone now... ;(

I'm so "DOWN" now....

Cos I have so many stuffs that I need to buy... But then i dun have enough CAPITAL to do so.... Haizz

So if any of u r kind enuf.. Donate to me la ye?

Hehehe....

I very kelian one... Ok?

Owas dun get to enjoy my holidays...

Owas sick during holidays... Haizzz....

I deserve ur sympathy.... Rite?

----(^o^)----

K la.. Time to rest..

Home.. But not my home...

Haha....

I reached KK just now... Bout 2pm... Then phoned beloved "sort-of-taxi-driver-but kind hearted-Uncle Chong" to pick us up, as usual... Yalah yalah, the us meant ME + Ah Gui... Hehehe.. **no false guesses please..

Ok.. bek to the story... After reaching, we headed straight to our destination... Actly I decided to come KK cos I have to fly from here to JB on the 13th of June.. Yalah, I noe it's still a week away... Dun say that I am rich cos I chose to come KK instead of spending the week in Labuan... Ok.. Let me xplain.....

1. 
   The lodging is provided by CKA... His bro agreed to lend us his
   house for the week... Big thks ya~~ *HUGsss....
2. 
   I was thking that since his
   bro oso got left his car here, it would be easier for us to move around... not
   that in UMSKAL dun have car.. But there is only 1 CAR in rent the whole campus during this time.... And bla bla bla....
3. 
   And... err.... Oh ya...My J2EE program ended d ma...

Ok.. After we finally reach the house.. I was so excited... Then suddenly ah gui said that he wanted to volunteer drive the car out to buy thgs... I went to take a bath... Suddenly.. my hp rang.. Guess what?? Jeng Jeng Jeng.. --the car wun start-- (=.=)"'

Haha... So the main point is that.. KK or no KK.. I am still stuck at home... But at least KK is better than Labuan.. The public transport here is plenty... So.. I'm still contented... =)

Oh ya... And rite now.. And this moment... I reli reli would like to thank CKA... cos lending me his broadband... Abo.... Sure I live miserably this coming few days... Wuwuwu...

K la... Hungry d... Gonna cook up something to eat... Hah~ That's the other reason y I came here... (:

~A Long Break~ And Back~

OK..... (FYI: this is the 2nd re-edit liao.. Dunno Y.. Kip got thgs wrong)

Been a reali long time since I last updated my blogs with news about me, huh? Well, the last post was just before my laptop "kicked the bucket".. So sad.... Just after I formatted it, now I have to reformat again.... Great~

Hmm... Actly I am now onlining in KFC, and the time is 920am..... I have to wake up around 5am today, got "excited" packing my things... Reach the ferry terminal in a fluster.. Only to find out that the ferry for Sunday is at 1030am... Great~

But... Nasib baik I got CKA's broadband.. Abo.. Sure I bored to death... I thk this is gonna b just a short posting... My laptop is running out of batt.... But o... Tell u guys a secret la.... I thk it is also thks to his broadband that my laptop have to re-format....

So.. In conclusion... Should I thks him or should I not??

Hard to answer ley???

haizzz..... K la... Until here only....

Will update again very soon and tell u guys what I have been busy with these past few weeks..... =)

Chao~

* Fed-Up *

I give up!!!

Seriously, I'm tired!!

Tired on pining hopes on you...

Said you will change, but until now, there is no clue that you are ever gonna change!!

When will you ever understand me???!!!!

You definitely had me shattered yesterday when you said things like that...

I'm so so so sad that after all this time, you never really did understand me...

Mayb what I did really wasn't enough...

But I can tell you that I never treated someone the way I treated you..

Whatever you wanted me to change, I am willing to... But you???

All you ever do is point out my mistake, but when I point out yours?? Did you even try to change??

Damn!!!!!!!!!!

Whatever you wanted to think, up to you....

As long as I know that I really had tried my best and did whatever I could to save our relationship, then enough d....

Haizzz, I just can't help feeling so lost sometimes... I really did whatever I could to make you see, but why r u just so BLIND?

When will you ever wake up? And not take me for granted?

Nevermind...

As long as I know what I'm doing...

I can't be bothered with you anymore and I made up my mind to let things stay the way they are now...

Whatever people will say and think of me, I dun care anymore.. I KNOW WHAT I"M DOING!!!

I reli wish to go back home....

Perhaps I wudn't be feeling so MISERABLE like right now...

Ok... Gonna eat my full at Manja Rasa tonite and enjoy to the fullest~~~

Weeeeeeeeeee~~~

I so need to drink right now!!!

*Emo-ing again*

** Muahahahahahahahahahaha **

Come on....

Dun be terrified la... I'm not CRAZY...

Haha, I'm just so happy I changed the skin of my blog finally....

These few days too free d, wakakakaka.... Ended up I kept updating my blog like now..

Wheee~~

I got this "Fairy Dust" background for my blog... LuRveee it~~

Haha...

In case u wanna change too, cos influenced by me... U can contact me.. wahahaha...

The fastest way to contact me would be thru this chatbox there.. Can c ma???

Haha... Dun woorry..

Will reply as soon as possible...

Cos free ma... *Plz dun kill me* I dun mean to be so free

As u can c, I'm so free, I am even putting the words in different COLOURS...

Wahahahahahah~~~ I'm not CRAZY!

*Gruuuurrr*

Hungry again...

Roomate out again...

Waaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~

*Hides in a corner*

*Emo-ing... Plz dun disturb*

* I CNT get to slip *

Wuwuwuwuwu...

When I finally found time to slip.. I pulak cnt sleep... ='(

Pathetic.... Duh...

The time is exactly 1.37am now...

Bad news : I haven't even bath.. And I have to wake up at 8.30 am tomorrow... But I'm not slipy... *Gee-hee-hee*

Good news : I get to eat decent food tomorrow... *Yippee~*

I'm so gonna get Panda eyes tomorrow... @___@

Haha, have to go bath now...My roomate is signalling that she will turn in anytime now... *Signals include: turning off computer, lying on her bed.. Gee-hee-hee*

Nytez guys....

*Offline*