* Fed-Up *

I give up!!!

Seriously, I'm tired!!

Tired on pining hopes on you...

Said you will change, but until now, there is no clue that you are ever gonna change!!

When will you ever understand me???!!!!

You definitely had me shattered yesterday when you said things like that...

I'm so so so sad that after all this time, you never really did understand me...

Mayb what I did really wasn't enough...

But I can tell you that I never treated someone the way I treated you..

Whatever you wanted me to change, I am willing to... But you???

All you ever do is point out my mistake, but when I point out yours?? Did you even try to change??

Damn!!!!!!!!!!

Whatever you wanted to think, up to you....

As long as I know that I really had tried my best and did whatever I could to save our relationship, then enough d....

Haizzz, I just can't help feeling so lost sometimes... I really did whatever I could to make you see, but why r u just so BLIND?

When will you ever wake up? And not take me for granted?

Nevermind...

As long as I know what I'm doing...

I can't be bothered with you anymore and I made up my mind to let things stay the way they are now...

Whatever people will say and think of me, I dun care anymore.. I KNOW WHAT I"M DOING!!!

I reli wish to go back home....

Perhaps I wudn't be feeling so MISERABLE like right now...

Ok... Gonna eat my full at Manja Rasa tonite and enjoy to the fullest~~~

Weeeeeeeeeee~~~

I so need to drink right now!!!

*Emo-ing again*

** Muahahahahahahahahahaha **

Come on....

Dun be terrified la... I'm not CRAZY...

Haha, I'm just so happy I changed the skin of my blog finally....

These few days too free d, wakakakaka.... Ended up I kept updating my blog like now..

Wheee~~

I got this "Fairy Dust" background for my blog... LuRveee it~~

Haha...

In case u wanna change too, cos influenced by me... U can contact me.. wahahaha...

The fastest way to contact me would be thru this chatbox there.. Can c ma???

Haha... Dun woorry..

Will reply as soon as possible...

Cos free ma... *Plz dun kill me* I dun mean to be so free

As u can c, I'm so free, I am even putting the words in different COLOURS...

Wahahahahahah~~~ I'm not CRAZY!

*Gruuuurrr*

Hungry again...

Roomate out again...

Waaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~

*Hides in a corner*

*Emo-ing... Plz dun disturb*

* I CNT get to slip *

Wuwuwuwuwu...

When I finally found time to slip.. I pulak cnt sleep... ='(

Pathetic.... Duh...

The time is exactly 1.37am now...

Bad news : I haven't even bath.. And I have to wake up at 8.30 am tomorrow... But I'm not slipy... *Gee-hee-hee*

Good news : I get to eat decent food tomorrow... *Yippee~*

I'm so gonna get Panda eyes tomorrow... @___@

Haha, have to go bath now...My roomate is signalling that she will turn in anytime now... *Signals include: turning off computer, lying on her bed.. Gee-hee-hee*

Nytez guys....

*Offline*

... Am I Doomed?? ...

Okay...

I just finished my French oral test....

Haizz... It wasn't really as hard as I imagined.. But somehow the look on Miss's face made me feel bad...

I felt bad cos she tried her best to help us so that we would not fail this subject.. But then, all I ever do is waste time.. I'm getting lazier and lazier to revise my french... I reli feel bad for mis-using her kindness... ='(

Haizz.. Her looks just made me feel that she was dissapointed with me...

I couldn't find the courage to face her at all when she said we all did terribly in the midterm.. she helped us make the marks look better by helping us on section 5 of the paper... Thank you very much Miss... I reli feel grateful for that, but at the same time, I am so sorry....

Somehow I felt down... Not because of the oral exam.. But because of the dissapointed look on her face...

*Sigh*

*Another Lonely Day* .... *And thx MIss Annie Koay* ...

Hmmm....

Ok.. Last nite I was a Cinderella... Now I'm bek to the real world again...

My roomate is out again... Tonite she's not coming back...

Doudou will go out to celebrate later...

He is no longer in connection with me...

Conclusion is : I'm alone..... =(

Ok, I blog when I feel like I wanted to.. When I feel bored.. and when I feel alone... so no offence ya if I blog twice today.. hehe....=)

"K, I wud like to take this chance, to thk Miss Annie Koay.... If it wasn't for her, I wudn't have looked like I did yesterday... Thks so so so much... =)"

Haizz.. I reli feel like having another McD Sundae now... And I miss home.. I miss mom.. I miss my family.. They are all I have left now... ='(

I dunno wat am I crapping bout.. Mayb cos I just woke up... sometimes I reli wish never wake up.. Its a harsh world... =(

Arghhhhh...

McD anyone??? *smile*

*HAHA* Its all finished...

HAHA...

It wasn't a happy haha.. Rather, it was a insulting "HAHA"....

I felt weird today... Is there something wrong with me?

Haizz...

I am confused... What is it that I want???

Dunno till when I can carry on like this... Kip denying my own feelings... Its reli making me crazy....

I am not happy as I tot I would...

All I do was wear a "HAPPY MASK"...

The worst part.. I dunno wat's wrong...

If that someone else can do it, why can't I????!!!!!!!! Why can't I just forget????????!!!!!!!!

*For goodness sake, CAROL... get a hold of urself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Damn it.. feeling so lost, confused, mixed-up, mould-up feelings now....

Arghhhhhhhhh..

Mayb I shud just get some slip....

*Nytez*

Some things to remember, Some to forget

Arghh...

[Stretching]

[Smiling]

Been some time since I updated my blog... Been terribly busy with assignments these few days... In fact, the last few days were HELL... [feeling sinful using this word]

It was slogging from morning till nite.. To add to it, the weather was very HOT~ So it was wakeup-bath-open laptop-do work-hungry, cnt eat-do work-bath-bath-bath....

By today, I finished up 4 assignments.. Phew, that was quite a feat for me.. As I'm usually finding time to sleep, but this time, sleep = die.. So I cnt slip... [yawning]

My roomate's out again... I dunno wat I'm thking of these few days.. Things are getting from bad to worse then bland.. Life become bland.. Sometimes, I wish I would had the guts to just run away from here.. But I dun... I thk I never will.. =(

That day, on the bus, with my head resting on his shoulders.. I dunno y, but suddenly my face were wet.. Ughh, I was crying agn...

Can't help it.. Too many thgs had happened within these few weeks.. So short a time, yet so many thgs for my little head to handle.. Then there were also other problems...

~Bek to the story~

As my head rested on his shoulder, I thought bout lots of thgs.. From how we met, what we been through together.. All the happy times... [taking out tissue] Gosh~ Sometimes, I wish I can brain wash myself... Then mayb thgs will end up in a different way...

Its hard to forget someone who brought many happy and [sad] times to you, someone so dear..

Everytime I go out, when I walk past the places we used to hang out, I [see] us there.. Laughing, playing around... Everytime I go on a bus, I [see] us, with my head on his shoulder, while he sleeps all throughout the journey... [roll my eyes]... Everytime I go shopping for my facial products, I remember making him wait for quite sometime.. Eveytime I walk pass the Triumph booth in Parkson, I remember teasing him.. I remember how we met when I go for walks at the seaside... I remember what he did for me when I go in the hall.. There are too many memories of us.. It's throughly impossible to list down all... [Sigh]

But then again, it remains the memories... That's why, once again, "Plz cherish everyday, live life to the fullest, enjoy every moment, happy or sad... Cos things ain't goin to stay the same... One day, it all will chg.. But at that moment, there will be no regrets, cos u knew u enjoyed every moment, to its fullest".... *winks*

Ahhh... I am still very much in love with him... These memories will always remind me of him, of the happy times.. sad times... they're not going to fade... At least so, for the time being....

[Smile]

[Grrrruuuu]... Alamak.. I'm hungry lah.. Not yet dinner.. Anyone care to blanja me makan? McD Sundae perhaps? XD